My Summer of 2020

My Summer of 2020

So here I am in New Jersey in the middle of the pandemic—largely housebound due to the extreme heat we’ve had over the past three weeks. I give thanks daily for my air conditioners and fans. It’s the little things that often matters most.

The pandemic has affected many areas of all of lives. Personally, I’ve often felt a sense of fear and dread regarding what’s happening in America and throughout the world. Truth be told, I’m worried about my future, the future of my daughter and people everywhere.

Then, over the course of the last week, I felt myself descending into a dark place. I felt restless, had trouble sleeping and spent a lot of time reflecting about my life.

Over time, I began to realize that I’m the only one who can pull myself out of this darkness. I could choose to continue being fearful and angry at what’s happening, or I could choose to acknowledge what’s going on without dwelling on the negative aspects of it.

I started to think about some of the stories my parents told me over the years and that’s what inspired me to do the best I can with the cards I was dealt with. My mother grew up on a farm in northern Canada. Her family’s home was small by today’s standards as there were ten kids and two parents sleeping in four small rooms. They worked hard just to survive. They grew their own food, had no electricity and dealt with long, harsh Canadian winters. Nine of the ten children were born in the house.

My father was born in France and as a young man was drafted to fight in World War II. Though he didn’t like to talk much about that period of his life, he did tell me that there were several times when he barely escaped with his life, all while witnessing his beloved home and country being destroyed. He had also suffered from hunger as often there was no food during the occupation. And, after experiencing the hardships of war, the family business was destroyed. They were left with virtually nothing.

Reflecting on those stories helped me put these challenging times in perspective. It was a good reminder that no matter how difficult things can get, not only we can get through them, we can become stronger. Putting in our best efforts, helping others where we can and not losing sight of the things we are grateful for, will help us move towards this uncertain future with what we need most— hope and faith.

I pray for my family and yours and people all over the world. No matter what lies ahead, I’ve chosen to do my very best to help make this world a better place.

This is my summer of 2020 and I am grateful to be here.


Jacques Lamour is a Co-founder of InnerGuide.